I Know You a Little Too Well

You want to ride
On the flying kites
Blue, red and green
Dance in your heart,
Bring out that brush
Let it run wild
I know you want to;
I know you a little too well

Buried you lay
Under that veil
Impervious
Imperious;
A lone leaf falls
Maybe a mountain too,
You say it don’t move you at all
But I know you a little too well

They come and they go
Enticing you
Solacing you
Raping you;
Tainted remnants
Devour your skin,
You say they can’t change you at all
But I know you a little too well

The waters run free
Fierce and forceful
Like you’ve always desired to be,
Stood at the end of that stream
The apogee of triumph
You had reached
Yet you say you never really did;
But I know you a little too well

A bitch you want to be
Lose your subtlety
Your well concealed purity;
You try to be her
A callous little narcissist,
But you are so fine my dear
Can you not see?
They come and they go,
Love it is you want
But they can never love you
The way I do
For I know you just a little too well

Nothing

I try to swallow it down
I try to blaze it out
I sometimes try drowning it
Even broke a glass or two,
But the pieces lay still
Like toxic droplets
Feasting on my brain;
Nothing

The odorless buds
Withered away
From white to grey,
Never did they bloom
Never could you see
The insatiable ardor
Or the yearning within;
Nothing

I tried to move a brick wall
Hit my knuckles hard
I tried driving past it too
The wheel in my hand
Little before dawn,
Head hung over
With lingering thoughts;
Nothing

I had held your hand
Felt the warmth so tender,
Your serene smile
Would let me fly
Had frozen it too
Many a times;
I have killed them now
I don’t want to fly
I lay here rooted
In nothing;
Nothing

3:15

Light up that stick
Watch the edges burn
From red to black
Incoherent, spiraling down
Like the stairs in your head;
Rewind the reel
Peel out the soul
Do you feel that trickle of blood?
The flash of rapture
The perpetual paranoia
The intoxication of dementia
All in oblivion

Suck it in
Feel the warmth
Swallow your insides
The slower you go, the higher you fly;
The skies roll
The trees cry
Do you hear that whisper?
Tiny voices screaming
In and out, up and down
Psychosis reigns
Over ephemeral bliss
Where did it all go?
Where?

Flick the stick now
Quivering hands, dried up inside
Watch the ashes float
From left to right
Tenderly caressing the ground
Dead;
Where is that beating now?
The surge of zeal
The palette of colors
The beauty of eloquence
All in oblivion

The stick glows bright
Like the sun before dusk
Taste that void
One last time;
The silence is deafening
Mind jaded, obscure
Rest asleep child
Pull the leash on the wonderments
The blood drips gently
Ever so gently;
Where did it all go?
The stick glows no more.